REFLECTION
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2006 was a rough year for me and there were many occasions when I was overwhelmed by anger, hatred and sorrow. It was certainly nothing to be proud of but just shows the lack of control over my emotions.
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This year brings new opportunities to start life anew. As such, I have decided to give my blog a new face and deleted previous upsetting entries. I will learn to be more forgiving, tolerant, optimistic and more importantly, to look and move forward in life. It will be a challenge but I am willing to give it my best.
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I get nervous and stressed out whenever I had to face an audience. I hate it when I know my stuff but unable to make an effective delivery. Sometimes my heart beat so hard and fast that it feels like as if I might just collapse any moment. What is there to be afraid? It's not as if my classmates and lecturers are going to eat me... I seriously got to do something about my self-confidence.
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Right now, I feel there is a lack of direction in my life. I am still uncertain about the kind of jobs to apply for upon graduation. Dad always tells me not to worry about the future but to just concentrate on the present, that is my studies. But wouldn't life be meaningless if there isn't a vision to support my goals?
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Suddenly I feel quite stress, so I better stop here and get some rest. *Inhale... Exhale... Sometimes I wonder why do I always have to take life so seriously. Ok, enough and stop thinking!